Saturday, February 14, 2009

V-Day

"Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
and my daddy said stay away from Juliet
but you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go"
-Taylor Swift, Love Story
Love is like a rumor
Everyone talks about it
But no one truly knows
-Anon.
A fool in love makes no sense to me.
I only think you are a fool
if you do not love.
-Anon.
Love is a haunting melody
That I have never mastered
And fear I never will.
-William S. Burroughs


I don't like country music or anyone that comes from the Disney channel, but I do like Taylor Swift's song Love Story. I just think it's refreshing to hear a song that can deal with relationships but not have to talk about sex or violence.

What I like about this song is that it takes a fairy tale and makes it seem real. I wish Romeo would come save me. My favorite line in the song is "We were so young when I first met you" because it shows that even though this song's Romeo&Juliet were in true love, they waited until they were old enough to get married.

I think that young people today act on their every emotion. People get into and out of relationships so often, they can't possibly be serious. I think that if people took more time, like Romeo & Juliet, they would be happier because they'd have healthier and more meaningful relationships.

I always find myself rushing into things and then regretting it. Maybe if I took more time getting to know someone, I would have more succesful relationships. Honestly, I don't reallt date. It just seems kind of silly todate in high school. I don't like to date right now because I think I'm too young and I wouldn't be able to take a relationship seriously. Realizing this has saved me from many wrong choices. I don't think that people stop and think often enough or maybe they'd realize the same thing.

So this Valentine's day, I don't have a date. Instead, I'm spending the day with my family. Tonight I'll most likely go out for coffee or ice cream or something with my friends. My best friends are my support system, so I think it will be nice to go out with them tonight and have a chance to tell them that I love and appreciate them.

Happy Valentine's day to everyone, hope you guys have a great weekend. <3

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Gorgeous day!


After waking up soo early today, I was dead tired in school. I got really stressed out and ended up in guidance trying to drop my French4, which didn't happen. The whole school day was just strenuous. In seventh period, my gym class went outside. That basically saved my sanity because the weather was outrageously wonderful today. Words can't explain it's perfection. So after school, I couldn't wait to drop off my friends and go home. When I got home, I got changed and cleaned my car. My car usually gets cleaned about once a year, but lately I've been taking extra special care of it. Hahaha. I think I'm just bribing it to last me through the winter.

AGH. I can't even blog anymore. I haven't been an American Idol fanatic since Kelly Clarkson-era but this year I was gonna give it a chance untttiiillll they just kicked off the awesome dude I loved! The guy's wife died a few years ago and him and his best friend foreverzzz came on the show and they're both awesome singers. They just kicked off the best friend and I'm so angry. They let through somany typical whiny white girls and I'm so sick of them!

Hahahhaa, this is why I'm not allowed to watch reality tv.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

snow hell.


Today was the most stressful day I've had in a long time. For some reason, though, I'm not stressed. I think so much happened today but I haven't let anything bother me. I like when I'm in moods like this, but I still don't like days like this.
This morning I didn't care if there was a delay or not because I wasn't going to school anyway. My Uncle Tom's funeral was this morning. The mass started at 10 o'clock at St. Gabe's church in Philly. Well, at 8 A.M. my aunt and uncle were at my house to pick up my parents and myself. My sister ended up staying home from school because no one was going to be home to pick her up afterwards. We all piled into my aunt's van and went around the corner to drop my sister off at my grandmom's house. She was walking up the driveway and my dad was walking with her. Well, my sister Jaclyn slipped and fell. My dad is a tough guy, but he even admitted that when he looked and saw her knee cap all out of place, even he got nauseous. I was freaking out because all I saw was that she fell, and it didn't seem like a big deal, but the way she screamed was unbelievable. If you have ever heard someone scream in genuine pain, you know that horror movie screams are complete bullshit. It was terrible and it made me realize that something was really wrong.
We took Jaclyn to the ER right away. That was an adventure. Hospitals are so weird. Let's just say that the ER nurse had a knee brace on so she was hobbling around everywhere. I mean, she couldn't even get outside to get us a wheelchair, why is she working the ER?!
After a bunch of useless paperwork and questions, Jaclyn got an x-ray. Nothing seems to be broken. She has a immobilizer and crutches. I'm really hoping that the swelling goes down in the next few days and everything heals by itself. I'm gonna freak out so bad if she has to get knee surgery.
The hospital was dead, so we actually were out of there pretty fast. My mom suggested that my dad and I still go over to the funeral and pay our respects, so we did. Well, the day only got more stressful. Our family lives right off of the South St bridge, but the bridge is closed for roadwork, so we had to get off at the 8th St/Chinatown exit. That really didn't matter too much, except that once we got down to where the family lives, we thought thew church was right aournd the corner. It wasn't. When we finally found the church, the percession was on its way out. We followed cars but at the end of the street, half of them turned one way, and the other ha;lf went the other way. We chose to turn right, but then at the next block they divided in half again! By this time, we only had one or two cars in front of us, and we realized that we lost the percession. The cemetary was aboutan hour away, all the way in Springfield. I whipped out my handy dandy Sidekick and pulled up the address on GoogleMaps. I am still proud of myself for getting us from an area in Philly we aren't familiar with, an hour away to a place we'd never been with only my phone and my excellent sense of direction, hahahha. When we got to the cemetary, the workers were there and said the family left about 3 or 5 minutes ago. It was really sad because we fought so hard to get there and then all we had to see was workers burying my uncle and all the flowerrs tossed to the side while they work. We drove around Springfield for a little while, just kind of quiet, and decided to go home.
So basically, I didn't have to go to school, but I just spent the past 6 hours in the ER and driving around Pennsylvania. Sheesh! I need a nap.
On most days, I bitch and whine about way less than this, but today, nothing could make me angry. I am just in a great mood. It's bizarre.
The only thing bugging me is that I catch so much crap from Maggi and Mr. M and everyoneeee for missing school. I know that I need to be in school all the time, but it's not like I just stay home and watch paint dry. Gosh.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

It's Tuesday. It's snowing.



Midterms suck.


I didn't realize how hard AP classes would be. My senior seminar class is even hard. I don't know. This year is just soo much more work than it seemed like it would be.


I sent in my Seton Hall application and Ms. Haffner said she was mailing out my transcripts and letters, but I got an e-mail from SHU saying they recieved my application but they need the paperwork. I keep meaning to talk to her about it but I don't even know why I haven't. I'm so freaking forgetful and I have this terrible soundin cough. I think it just comes down to I'm not taking care of myself. I'm really not. I don't know. I'm just such a burnout.


I can't wait for spring. The snow is gorgeous but the dark, cold days are getting to me. I was talking to Megan the other night and we noticed how our friends are in hibernation. It's really strange for us to not see each other for more than a couple days, but it's been like that lately. Megan just got back from her vaca to Mexico, so I was telling her how I missed her and we hadn't seen each other for like a week. That's when we realized our friends haven't been getting together as much as usual. I don't know. I see Mikey all the time, and Matt sees Britt, and Megan sees Liora, but we don't see each other. Hahaha. Our family is out of wack!


Speaking of wack, I'm about to watch The Wackness. :) I love Netflix days. The mail comes around 2, so when I get home I get to check the mail and opening that box and seeing wonderful movies inside makes my day. This movie has Ben Kingsley, Josh Peck and Mary Kate Olsen. Weird combo, but Ben is the therapist, Josh goes to see him. Josh is a dealer and pays Ben in bud. MaryKate is Josh's friend and Ben ends up falling for her? Soooo this should be interesting.

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Listening to: We're Going to Be Friends, White Stripes.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Bestiesss!


I'm going to dedicate this blog to my bestest friend Maddie. Madalyn April is an amazing girl that brings so much sunshine into my life. I feel that I do not appreciate her as much as I should. We've been through a lot of changes together and even though certain things have come between us, our friendship remains intact.

Maddie moved a lot while we were in middle school and now that she dropped out I don't see her much. However, I talk to her every day and I don't know what I would do if I didn't have her in my life. She has the greatest mind and I love being able to say whatever I want to her.

Our conversations are far from normal. We get into serious hardcore talks about life within the first five minutes we see each other. I love that about her because a lot of times when you talk to someone you waste fifteen minutes just joking around and seeing how they're doing, but not actually discussing anything worthwhile. We do not do that. We hope and dream and make ridiculous plans.

Today:

Maddie's text at 1:51pm- "We make a living by what we get, we make a life by what we give."

It reminds me of you.

I posted a survey on Myspace that asked a question about waking up scared and I said that once I woke up in Williamstown next to Maddie when I thought I was home and it scared me.)

Maddie:lol please! waking up next to me in williamstown isnt as crazy as captian majestic staring me down until i fell asleep haha.


Maybe that doesn't make sense to anyone else, but I laughed as soon as I read it. Also, everyone loves their best friend and I understand that. I just felt the need to blog my love out. Hahaha.


WINGS GAME TOMORROW!! whatsgood?!?!

Saturday, January 17, 2009

AYO!

I do not understand why all week I wait for the weekend so I can be free and go out and do whatever I feel like when once it's the weekend all I feel like doing is sleeping. Hahaha.
So last night I was taking my friend Murph to the store and when he got in the car his door wouldn't shut. The same thing happened to me yesterday morning and I ended up being late to school because of it. So I had to drive all the way back to my house with Murph in the back seat holding the door closed while we were driving, It was ridiculous. What was even more ridiculous was the way we fixed it was by blowtorching the door latch things. The whole situation was just very silly.
This morning I rolled off the couch to go to crew at 9 AM, which is not fun. I usually end up getting to crew at 10 or 10:30 just because it's so hard for me to get up in the morning, but I was doing good this morning. I got up and got out the door and it was only ten after nine. My door closed fine, and everything was going good. I started my car and figured I could just go since the school was literally like 3 blocks away from where I was. I started to back out of the driveway and my car stalled while I was in the middle of the road! I was so nervous that a car would come by I tried restarting my car and it was not working. I finally put it in neutral and pushed it back into the driveway just so I was out of the road. I could not believe it. After trying to restart it a few more times, I called my dad. He told me to try starting it and while I was turning the key pump the gas really hard and fast. Thank goodness that worked!
I ended up getting to crew at 9:30. Hahaha. It doesn't seem to matter to me because there's never that much to do for props on Saturdays, but whatever. We took all of the props out of the inside closet and ended up putting them all back in in the end.
After crew, I came home and took a long nap. I love my Saturday afternoon naps, hahaha. There's just no way I can go to crew so early in the morning and not take a nap...I'd be so grumpy all day it's not worth skipping it.

Anyway, I really want to see Notorious.
I can't wait for spring, by the way. This cold is ridiculous and I miss being able to go outside and play. :(

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

AWESOME.

Oh yeah, Jess is now on blogger!!!
Justin and myself have decided to come and make everyone on here look cool. :)

Sam tells me that I should blog about today so, I will.
Just got back from Wendy's night.
My mom is watching American Idol and I think I'm losing brain cells as we speak. This show is completely ridiculous and the contestants creep me out.

I finished my Seton Hall application today!!! I'm really excited to submit it and wai around for my letter. I just really want to be accepted. It's my top school and I'm barely interested in any others. So we'll see.

Yeahhhh so this is pretty cool. It's just like the Xanga I had my freshman year except people from school are actually on this. But right now there's some weird chicks on Idol about to rap so I'm gonna have to go hide somewhere...it's not looking good.

09!!!!!!
:D

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